I’ve always had a pet; sometimes a dog,
sometimes a cat or two and, most recently, two cats and one dog. Sadly one of
our feline family members passed away four days ago. I’ve lost numerous cats
over the years. Since losing the last one, I’ve lost four significant people. I
would have thought that having lost human friends and family members would have
made it easier to lose a pet. The opposite seems to be true, however, in this
case. I’ve been walking around with a heavy heart since our little Armand died.
Armand joined our family eleven years ago as
a kitten. Teenage Daughter and I went to the RSPCA animal shelter and picked
him out. Actually, he picked us out. He walked to the front of the cage and
began to purr. When we held him, he purred more loudly and when we put him back
in the cage, he watched us expectantly as we held and patted other kittens. In
a sense, he never stopped purring.
Almost as soon as we got him home, he was
staring longingly out the back door. Once we were confident he would be safe,
we let him venture outside. He ran across the grass, frolicking and chasing
things. His personality was too big to be contained in the back garden and,
before we knew it, he was under the back gate or up a tree.
Eventually, he began to jump over the fence
to the front garden and sometimes venture up into our quiet cul de sac. One
time I saw him sound asleep on our next door neighbour’s roof, enjoying the
sun.
Armand was a hunter. We were very pleased by
the fact that we often saw him with mice or rats in his mouth. We were
confident that with him keeping down the rodent population we wouldn’t have to
worry about snakes. It was difficult sometimes to reconcile the ruthless rodent
slayer with the charming boy who used to cuddle on our laps, kneading with his
paws and purring himself to sleep.
I didn’t use the word ‘charming’ lightly; he
really was. He would greet me when I’d been out with a friendly meow or
approach me for no other reason than to say hello sometimes. He always kept me
company when I hung clothes on the line, rolling around in the sunshine.
Whenever any of us were sitting under our back pergola, it was guaranteed that
Armand would join them for a cuddle.
The problem is that we were wrong about
snakes. On Wednesday afternoon, a Brown Snake was seen in our cul de sac; on
Thursday morning I found my charming boy dead. Since he was perfectly healthy
the day before and people around here don’t bait other people’s cats, I think
it’s safe to assume that Armand’s fearlessness and curiosity got the better of
him and he took on the wrong opponent this time.
Husband dug a grave in the back garden and we
placed our boy in. I don’t really know if it’s Jewishly correct to do so but we
said the Mourners’ Kaddish prayer for him and each of us placed a shovelful of
dirt over him. I even stepped back from the grave, according to custom. I found
it heart-breaking to do so.
Yesterday evening we were driving home and
Teenage Son said, “Look at the dirty paw prints on Dad’s front windscreen.
They’re Armand’s.”
My boy’s footprints were still there. I
imagine they’ll be washed away in the next rain or when Husband washes his car
– whichever comes first. The little feline paw prints he left on my life will
remain, however.
Cheers and give your pets a pat from me.
They'll do that. You bring them home because you love them, and love is love. Decades ago, when my first cat died, we buried her under a magnolia tree. The leaves were richer and the flowers brighter for years afterward, and we found that somehow comforting. Wouldn't recommend a fruit tree for that, though; might get a little weird...
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We're planning to plant something over Armand's grave; we haven't decided what yet. In the meantime, the dog lies near it in the sun, as if keeping guard.
ReplyDeleteIf you ever take a drive along Bains Road in Morphett Vale, Rachel, on the right hand side there is a huge golden elm on the corner of the block of the first house after the reserve where Zoe, my first Siamese, lies. I don't get down that way very often, but as Jack says, it's somehow comforting to see that big, beautiful tree where my small elegant friend lies.
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